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Tarot Card for Today: Five of Pentacles

Poverty consciousness. Self-pity. Waiting to be rescued. Determine how you can help yourself instead.

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November 20, 2024 11:04 AM (EST)

Dear Allison & the Onyx Savant,

How are you both today? O.S., I heard from you that you are under the weather. Poor man. I would like to Instacart you some supplies, but I don’t want to overstep. Also, I did that once for my parents, and then later ordered groceries for myself and had them delivered to my parents. I forgot to change the delivery address. So. It could be a gamble. I don’t think you need drama in addition to illness. I will practice a metta meditation on your behalf from over here. I hope you get well soon. Ally-san, how is it in the City of Oaks? I was looking at your website the other day for some reason, and I noticed how you have this massive team of awesomeness now. That is so baller of you! 😃 I am so pleased at your success. You deserve it, truly. You should go buy yourself and Master Forest something pretty. Or do something less consumer driven that you enjoy, like go somewhere you don’t normally get to go. Walk a path you have not yet walked. Bake a very large cake and put a giant strawberry on top.

An explanation of and guide to metta meditation

An explanation of and guide to metta meditation

I have recently returned from getting my annual mammogram. I am truly so proud of myself for having kept up my health routines over the past year. I am nowhere near perfect, but I’ve had all my tests except the genetic one. I need to schedule that, but I’ve been put off by the horror stories of people not being listened to. I’m also not sure that it will help much. My PCP told me that it will get me a yearly EEG or EKG, I’m not sure which, to check my heart. I think that’s the game now. Basically, everyone should be tested for things, but the tests are expensive, so you have to get access one way or another. Like, it’s a sale at a department store or something. If I have this card, it will allow me to get one free lipstick every 3 months, and I have to do XYZ to get the card. I don’t exactly know, but I don’t think it’s how we should be handling human care. I would like to say “human care” one more time. Care.

Ally-san, look at what my brain did just now. I was so happy about my stuff. But, apparently, my brain doesn’t like happiness, so it veers over into worry and and existential dread. That is Mr. Ick’s doing. He is pulling some levers back there. I am going to zap him with this cattle prod that I just imagined in my hand. Zaaapp! ZZZZZzzzaap! {”EEEeee—-yyyowww!”} I know it's not nice to cattle prod people, but this is Phyllislandia. By law, I get a permit for a certain number of cattle prods per month in Mr. Ick season. Which is, coincidentally, right now. {”But, why, Mother?” “Because I said so, dear.”}

Okay, I just felt the need to be silly a bit before I get to work on my to-do list. I cannot do what I have to until I have done what I want, at least a little. That might be a major breakthrough. I doubt it. Let’s see…what did Mr. Bennett say in Pride & Prejudice when Lydia ran off with that cad of ill repute, Wickham? Eureka! ““No, Lizzy, let me once in my life feel how much I have been to blame. I am not afraid of being overpowered by the impression. It will pass away soon enough.” Hilarious.

I hope you both have brilliant days that get even better. It is rainy here, but I like the autumn with a grey sky. The colours seem to be even more vivid, like a colorful photograph in a black frame. Please give my love to your canine friends and anyone else you like.

Blessed be—

Case Study #69